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DOOM placed two canners on the stove.

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DOOM arrived with a wooden crate of tomatoes.

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DOOM placed two recipes on the table.

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DOOM gave me one instruction before I entered the used-car market.

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A year ago, I thought I knew what this season would look like.

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There was once a leader who inherited a kingdom that still looked whole. That was the first danger. The oaks still threw shade over the road. The accounts still balanced at the end of the month. The gates still opened wh...

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-leader-who-marked-the-line","title":"The Leader Who Marked the Line","summary":"There was once a leader who inherited a kingdom that still looked whole. That was the first danger. The oaks still threw shade over the road. The accounts still balanced at the end of the month. The gates still opened wh...","date_modified":"2026-05-03T01:07:55Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/what-remains-in-the-wild","html_content":"

The act ends before the aftermath begins.

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The first wound is bark.

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The first charge is not enough to change the room.

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Did you notice the $2.99 repeating; a small line returning again and again, steady enough to fade into the background;

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They did not announce their departure.

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They arrived without context.

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It did not arrive with a card.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/residual-system","title":"Residual System","summary":"It did not arrive with a card.","date_modified":"2026-04-25T12:19:38Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-second-layer-of-kindness","html_content":"

The fern arrived on a Tuesday.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-second-layer-of-kindness","title":"The Second Layer of Kindness","summary":"The fern arrived on a Tuesday.","date_modified":"2026-04-25T12:08:02Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/doom-the-trophy-and-the-line-ii","html_content":"

The trophy didn’t leave.

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There are seasons in life where growth feels incremental; quiet; almost unnoticeable.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-eight-mountains","title":"The Eight Mountains","summary":"There are seasons in life where growth feels incremental; quiet; almost unnoticeable.","date_modified":"2026-04-17T16:24:17Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-apprentice-of-doom-and-the-rose-field","html_content":"

On Sundays, I audit Artificial Intelligence Agents (agents) in a rose field.

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The tree stands near the bend in the path, marked by a small plaque:

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Once upon a time, there was an Apprentice of Doom who tended a vast strawberry field. The field stretched so wide that from its center you could see every horizon at once. The world had access, and so did she. That was t...

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On Saturdays, I train bots in a garden.

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Today marks a rare convergence.\nAsh Wednesday begins the Lenten journey for Christians.\nTonight, Ramadan begins for Muslims around the world.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/under-the-fig-tree-leadership-and-community-in-a-sacred-season","title":"Under the Fig Tree: Leadership and Community in a Sacred Season","summary":"Today marks a rare convergence.\nAsh Wednesday begins the Lenten journey for Christians.\nTonight, Ramadan begins for Muslims around the world.","date_modified":"2026-02-18T11:58:20Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/doom-the-valentine-bed","html_content":"

On Love, Pruning, and the Stories We Tell Ourselves About Growth

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Leaders don’t usually have the luxury of extended pauses.\nWhat they do have are brief moments (30 seconds, a minute) where the quality of their attention determines what happens next.

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I don’t see it first. I feel the shift under my foot — soil holding moisture just beneath heat, air thickening without cooling, the kind of density that doesn’t announce water but makes your body aware that something is ...

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/doom-held","title":"DOOM: HELD","summary":"I don’t see it first. I feel the shift under my foot — soil holding moisture just beneath heat, air thickening without cooling, the kind of density that doesn’t announce water but makes your body aware that something is ...","date_modified":"2026-02-11T05:00:00Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/doom-rooted-elsewhere","html_content":"

I leave the orchard without ceremony, without the clean satisfaction of a door closing behind me, without even the relief I expected would arrive once the rows disappeared from view, and the first thing I notice is not o...

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I am in an orchard, and I know this not because it is welcoming or generous or calm, but because my body is already tired in that specific way it gets when the ground keeps rising just enough to punish you for assuming t...

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/doom-held-in-the-orchard","title":"DOOM: HELD IN THE ORCHARD","summary":"I am in an orchard, and I know this not because it is welcoming or generous or calm, but because my body is already tired in that specific way it gets when the ground keeps rising just enough to punish you for assuming t...","date_modified":"2026-02-11T01:18:58Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/when-presence-feels-like-impact-a-review-of-song-of-solomon","html_content":"

I expected to be moved by Song of Solomon. I didn’t expect my nervous system to react the way it did.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/when-presence-feels-like-impact-a-review-of-song-of-solomon","title":"When Presence Feels Like Impact: A Review of Song of Solomon","summary":"I expected to be moved by Song of Solomon. I didn’t expect my nervous system to react the way it did. ","date_modified":"2026-02-10T00:55:41Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/when-authorship-is-treated-as-a-free-resource","html_content":"

There is a quiet limit most people don’t talk about.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/when-authorship-is-treated-as-a-free-resource","title":"When Authorship Is Treated as a Free Resource","summary":"There is a quiet limit most people don’t talk about.","date_modified":"2026-02-10T00:48:21Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/resilience-as-infrastructure","html_content":"

A Self-Guided Training for Professionals Without Teachers

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I am in the garden because winter is when mistakes become visible.

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After the mosaic appears, the garden does not revert.\nReversion is not a biological category. It is a coping story.

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A Garden Record of What Stayed Changed

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A Garden Report on Pattern Distortion, Proximity Rules, and the Management of What Will Not Leave

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/doom-mosaic","title":"DOOM: MOSAIC","summary":"A Garden Report on Pattern Distortion, Proximity Rules, and the Management of What Will Not Leave","date_modified":"2026-01-29T22:05:03Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/language-as-ecological-infrastructure","html_content":"

A Companion Essay in the Living Systems Series

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/language-as-ecological-infrastructure","title":"Language as Ecological Infrastructure","summary":"A Companion Essay in the Living Systems Series","date_modified":"2026-01-28T12:38:43Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-gravel-garden-stewardship-tool","html_content":"

How to design landscapes that signal care, reduce conflict, and hold up under climate pressure.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-gravel-garden-stewardship-tool","title":"The Gravel Garden Stewardship Tool","summary":"How to design landscapes that signal care, reduce conflict, and hold up under climate pressure.","date_modified":"2026-01-28T12:15:53Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-tender-plant-decision-tool","html_content":"

For container gardeners planning ahead.

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Right where we live.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/trees-how-to-care-for-what-will-live-after-us","title":"Tree's: How to Care for What Will Live After Us","summary":"Right where we live.","date_modified":"2026-01-28T02:05:02Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/doom","html_content":"

A Satire on Boundaries, Time, and the Power of Not Responding

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On Authorization, Attribution, and Refusal

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On Curiosity, Breach, and the Things That Cannot Follow You Into the Woods

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-link-that-looked-harmless","title":"THE LINK THAT LOOKED HARMLESS","summary":"On Curiosity, Breach, and the Things That Cannot Follow You Into the Woods","date_modified":"2026-01-23T23:22:14Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-room-that-learned-my-name","html_content":"

On Voices, Extraction, and the Moment the Door Closed

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If you’re reading this from abroad (between time zones, visas, institutional expectations, and unreliable Wi-Fi) this reflection is for you.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/my-2025-year-end-reflection-growth-through-change","title":"My 2025 Year-End Reflection: Growth Through Change","summary":"If you’re reading this from abroad (between time zones, visas, institutional expectations, and unreliable Wi-Fi) this reflection is for you.","date_modified":"2026-01-02T22:11:40Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-work-beneath-the-work","html_content":"

I’m in a season of learning what it means to move through systems—professionally, personally, and relationally—with more intention and less unconscious carrying.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/the-work-beneath-the-work","title":"The Work Beneath the Work","summary":"I’m in a season of learning what it means to move through systems—professionally, personally, and relationally—with more intention and less unconscious carrying.","date_modified":"2025-11-17T23:00:12Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/when-advocacy-becomes-exhaustion","html_content":"

It didn’t hit me while I was writing.\nIt hit me when I finally stopped.

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/when-advocacy-becomes-exhaustion","title":"When Advocacy Becomes Exhaustion","summary":"It didn’t hit me while I was writing.\nIt hit me when I finally stopped.","date_modified":"2025-10-29T17:23:23Z"},{"id":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/seven-days-of-stabilization-day-7-%E2%80%94-review-celebrate","html_content":"

Why it matters

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Why it matters

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Why it matters

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Why it matters

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Why it matters

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Why it matters

","url":"https://tonidevol.com/nshss-fellow-volunteer-1/f/seven-days-of-stabilization-day-2-%E2%80%94-start-a-plan","title":"Start a Plan","summary":"Why it matters","date_modified":"2025-09-24T08:00:00Z"}]}